Having a very sad day.

Thanks. I'm just in one of those moods, looking at the Christmas tree thinking about how I should be chasing MY babies away from it instead of the kids I'm babysitting (who are around the same age as my babies would be btw) soo it's just really hard. I am so angry at myself for allowing myself to get to the point that I have.

It is understandable that you would be worried.  It is human to worry.  It sounds like you have every reason to be concerned and stressed.  But the great unknown is much worse than what ever is going on with your body.  Remember, one thing at a time.  They will take good care of you if you let them. 

I know, I am just embarrassed I guess.

Misty I too hate the holidays because almost everyone I have ever known and loved has died(left Me) at this time of year. I went from this being my favorite time of year to absolutly hating it and wishing I could get over it. Girl friend don't beat yourself up for being down and depressed at this time of year! Just do something nice for yourself and take a nice walk in the brisk air. Also if the children that you are watching are about the age yours would have been do you think it is very uplifting to continue to watch them? Think about it and get a hold of the docs about the possibilty of an ulcer asap as it may take a month to get into see whoever yours is. I am going to see Jones and it is going to take me a month to get into see her. SO get to it and call them! Take care and tomorrow it will be better! Or we can hope can't we! LOL! Michelle

Its not just the time of year.. I'm just flat out depressed period. :(

I am having a down day too so it has to be the weather....Hang in there and you will pull through this.  You are very strong and if you need anything please let me know...

Hugs
Melissa

Thanks./

Misty, big hugs to you girl.  I know you are strong and can get thru all this.  I will keep u in my prayers.

Love ya Misty
You are doing so good...
I have sils that are healthy and couldnt carry or 1 couldnt have any oops she does now you never know what miracle could happen..
Get yourself taking care of your health is nothing to mess with.
Take care sweetie